Tonight, I saw saw a moment, as Splinter would put is, where the Kingdom of God came down to earth. You know, those moments where you just watch love become real right infront of you, and you see people look each other in the eyes and listen. Like really listen to another human being's story. Being able to be a part of it is so incredibly beautiful. Ha, I just said Whalley is beautiful.
With that said, I think I'm done with realizing how lucky I am. I mean, I know that. I've taken enough trips to China, downtown and Whalley to realize how lucky I am. I've been told how lucky I am multiple times. I've said, "I just realized how lucky I am," more times than I need. Far too many times have I complained and then realized that I shouldn't be complaining, because of how lucky I am.
I'm just at this point where I know that I need to put those realizations into action.
I think the only thing holding me back is that I know God will put me in a place way out of my comfort zone. Like that one time when I was really young, and we had a Sunday School lesson about how we should use our gifts to glorify God. I prayed, "Dear God. Please let me use my musical talents to serve You. Amen," and the next day, I got asked to play my violin for the Chinese service the following Sunday (which by the way, is freaking scary and intimidating). I felt like God was playing a practical joke on me, and I couldn't back out, because I asked for it. I'm pretty sure if we're made in the image of God, and we have senses of humour, God does too.
Coincidentally (okay, maybe not really, because I don't think things like this happen by coincidence), today in French class, Ralph started talking about how he imagines his life to be in the future - living comfortably, not too rich to be paranoid, but not so poor to have any worries about money. And I just blurted out, "I don't want a life like that, because you will always want more." I was so surprised with myself, because I've always wanted to live in a house with a white picket fence, have a successful career, give my 10% and basically, live as I am living now. After all, that's what I've been trained all my life to do - study hard, get a good education, get a good job, help myself, family, friends, and if possible, anyone else.
I guess it all sort of tied together when Wally and Marianne shared their testimonies about how they just dropped everything and did whatever God told them to do. They are blessed, because they just love. They are blessed, because they know how to show compassion to people who are usually ignored. They are blessed, because they live for doing this.
Anyways, I'm a little regretful to say this, because I have a feeling God's gonna pull another violin incident, but I'm stoked to see what God calls me too do, because I want in on some of these blessings (Okay, not JUST for the blessings... but you get what I mean).
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GOod STUFF>! this is sam by the way just dont want to open any accounts!
Dang I wish you could have heard the testimony of one of the guys here, Dan Verbeek. He talked about a trip he went on, and the first thing from God was that he went at all (he had a lot of issues with that) and it just kept going. He prayed before that God would challenge him and I can't remember what else and there was some pretty intense stuff, like a man who stuck his head in their window while they slept and pointed a gun at them. Your blogging just brought all that back for me because it's exactly the same message.
He went to Israel, ps.
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