I try really hard not to get too discouraged about not making my goals, school-wise. Keyword: Try. It's different when you're in elementary school, and you're the smartest kid in your class. You don't have to try. Perks of being asian in a white world (just kidding, I know white people are smart too). Once you hit highschool, that whole being smart thing comes as a disadvantedge, because basically, you're not anymore. My dad always told me that no matter what, no matter if you get the top grades in your school or get into a good university, when you get out into the world, you're nothing. I'm not even out in the world yet, and I'm already starting to feel like nothing. I was stupid enough to let myself slip up on some of my courses at the beginning of the term, so now, trying my best doesn't cut it. It's not like I'm doing bad... It's just that I've always done better. And as much as I hate making my life about learning facts and understanding concepts, that's what it comes down to. I mean, you start meeting people who are so naturally smart. They don't study and get nearly perfect on their SATs. They don't make stupid mistakes like writing a 0 that looks like a 6, and they just seem to be good at absolutely freaking everything. And frick, this is already North American standards. Don't even get me started on what goes on over there in Hong Kong and Singapore. It's hard to live in a world where everyone is a perfectionist, and there is no room for mistakes.
And then there's the kids in your Math class who are always so chill, like they get something that I don't. You know, the kids who are always like, "WTF, STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT YOUR B." The ones that get sad about their 70-something on a test for about an average of 3 seconds, while people like me still think about it before I fall asleep at night. The ones that care, but don't at the same time. Seriously, they get it. They may not get logarithms, mole concepts or why the world goes 'round, but they get it. They understand that love is all about making room for mistakes, and I think we all need to get that, inside and outside of school.
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If it helps, I got 60 on my poli midterm. I'm not worried. I have my mid to high nineties (so far) in music to keep my GPA up.
Just gotta find the bright side. I'm not stupid enough to say that there's good to counter every bad thing (think about Haiti, or the holocaust), but usually there's something =)
And us idiots don't always get it. Sometimes we just...don't care ;)
You just need to keep trying and DON'T give up. Ask others for help and spend some quality time doing the math problems. I find that praying before you tackle something you're weak at keeps you calm, because frustration has a way of preventing things from entering your brain.
That way, even if you don't do extremely well, you'll know that you did your best, and that should bring you satisfaction.
I know it sounds cliche, but if I have learned anything in IB, it's that the key to success if failure. I have failed so many quizzes and tests these past two years, but when you work your butt off, God will reward you for it. It sucks that I had to learn it the hard way, but it's true. Also, focus on your strengths to keep your GPA up. You excel at writing, so keep that in mind when you feel like you're not worth anything. No one is good at everything... and maybe you can't do algebra like a korean, but you're creative and amazing at expressing yourself through writing. Not many people can do that.
Maybe having weaknesses in some areas is a good thing. It pushes you to expand your limits and restrictions.
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