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Two things:
1. I wish I could just be straight up about things. I have so many things to say to people, but I just come home to my little computer and type away. In my experience, it's worked before to just let things be, but I know one day, it'll come back around a kick me in the face. I wish I was brave.
2. I do this thing in my head where I just build things up and make them a bigger deal than what they probably are. And then I saying things that are untrue in hopes that it will come true, but then I start believing it, and I can't tell what's true or not anymore.
Mmm... I feel like I've made a mess of things, but maybe I haven't. Maybe I'm just telling myself that.