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Today was one of those mornings when you wake up feeling completely fine and then within 2 seconds, disappointment slaps you in the face, and you wish you didn't wake up. Some days are just like that. Some days you just wake up in a terrible mood. Some days you don't want to leave your house just because you know you have to deal with people, even people you were perfectly fine with yesterday. That's why I have to make myself too busy for my own good or else I'll wallow. I've gotten way too good at wallowing.
Don't get me wrong though. There is no problem with being sad. It's just staying sad that gets the best of me. I never know what to do with myself. I just sit there, a fat kid in the making.
And then somewhere along the way, I end up being with people like you. The reason I like hanging out with you so much is because I can just blank out. Not like the blanking out I do when I'm sitting in Math class, and I zone out for a minute and come back completely lost about how to find n ways of seating Anne, Bill and Jack, but the blanking out where I suddenly don't give a crap about crap. It's just you and me, vanilla ice cream cones and conversations that you'll remember, but I won't, and for once, I can just be.
Today, I realized that when I don't know what to do with myself, I just need to be with people like you, run, make music and watch movies with my cousins. Life is better when you don't give yourself a chance to wallow.
Today was a good day.