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The number one question that I get asked, after "Which university are you planning to study at?" is "What are you planning to study?" Before, I'd always give longwinded answers about the pros and cons between English/Writing, Environmental Studies and Business, but now, I just say, "I don't know. I change my mind too much." The truth is, I've always had plans A-Z, but those plans are actually just back-up plans. I find myself asking God a lot these days about what He wants to do with my life and future. I always see people finding their role in God's plan, and I'm so glad for them, but it makes me a little impatient at the same time about what's in store for me. Everyone is designed to do something. I believe that when you find that something and combine it with real love, the kind that can move mountains, that's when you experience true freedom. The thing is, I feel like God could've already revealed to me what He wants, possibly a thousand times, but I just haven't been able to see it. Or maybe He's waiting for me to forget about having back-up plans and just rely on Him. Or maybe this is just a case of what we like to call "bad timing," but it's really just His timing. Or maybe I'm already doing His will, but I don't realize it. Or maybe predestination is actually true, and it was already planned out since the beginning that I would be writing this blog post at this very exact moment in time, so I really don't have to be worrying about my future if fate has already decided it all. I'm totally kidding. Let's NOT get into that.
This is around the time that I wish I could read God's mind... And then I realize that if I could do that, my head would explode.