Reason why I miss you #51:
I miss the way you stirred my heart. At first, it was the sudden skip you feel when things are just beginning; the kickstart for exciting things to come. Then, the beat became temporarily irregular. My heart would sing when it was supposed to dance and dance when it was supposed to sing. Sometimes it would leap straight out of my chest and other times, it would wrap itself in blankets. Soon, the irregular became normal, and I couldn't figure out why. And then I saw it - the dissonance in you; how you were both seeking and running away at the same time. That was where the push and pull of my heart came from. You moved me. And it was chaotic and beautiful - the way all hearts look when they dance together.
Now, when it is quiet, I listen to my heart and hear a steady rhythm. And I wonder to myself if it is normal.